Resisting change is innate in the human psyche rooted deeply in our fear and desire to control. Grumpiness is the negative attitude that arises when we are faced with the truth and choose to resist reality – we can’t control anything other than what we are doing in the moment.
The definitions of grumpiness include: surly and peevish; cranky; ill-tempered; discontentedly or sullenly irritable. That describes the emotions I have been experiencing since I awoke to a broken foot.
- Grumpy was my response to spring weather that was cooler and wetter than usual as my bones ached and my broken foot throbbed.
- Grumpy was my response to spending a small fortune to travel to medical centers and labs.
- Grumpy was my response being tested and scanned over and over again while specialists puzzled over results that don’t match symptoms.
- Grumpy was my response to hobbling around on crutches or cane and/or hopping on one foot.
- Grumpy was my response to falling down twice and hurting my knee and hip.
- Grumpy was my response to enduring a fibromylagia flare-up through out this process.
- Grumpy resulted in becoming withdrawn, falling behind in blogging and commenting but not feeling motivated to act.
- Grumpy was my state state of being – a moment away from breaking down, bawling my eyes out, and wallowing in a pool of self-pity.
- Grumpy was the result of being focused on everything I could not do with a broken foot, rather than focusing on what I can do.
I was longing to get into fence mending, brush clearing, forest clean-up, out building clean up, spring housecleaning, mowing and weed wacking, etc. but those are impossible to do when hobbling about on crutches. Change is inevitable. There’s nowhere to go from here but either down into depression (Nay!), or up into a better attitude (Yay!). Despite my inability to do many things I expected to be able to do, I’m aimed at overcoming fear and elevating my mood by focusing on what I can do.
Positive thinking helped me heal. It made me see the best of the world. It made me more aware. It made me hope. It made me live soulfully. It made living happily so simple. It is my only savior in my most trying times. — Zeenat in The Secret to an Unwavering Positive Outlook
I am an introvert and when I feel frightened and threatened I withdraw. I examine what’s going on inside me before I choose to act to take care of myself.
What do you do when you recognize you are feeling threatened and resisting change?
What steps do you take to pacify and comfort the fearful child within you?
How do you make the change in direction required to escape the negative ‘can’t do’ thinking trap and adopt a positive ‘can do’ attitude?