From Mike’s blog - The Absent Mind:

“Growing up as a child, and even well into adulthood, I always thought there was something wrong with me because I had a certain “indifference” in my personality. I never really wanted all the same experiences people seemed to want, but somehow I was convinced that I should want them. So as an adult I tried them all out, to see if I was missing something. What I eventually realized is that there was nothing wrong with my indifference. In fact, I can now see that it was at the core of my divinity. Maybe you are just like I was. Satisfied with life exactly as it is, but not certain that you should be. And so you seek that which you don’t have.

And so I find myself right back where I started many years ago. Essentially no wiser than the seven year old who began to wonder about God and life.”

Experience, however sublime, is not the real thing. By its very nature it comes and goes. Self-realization is not an acquisition. It is more of the nature of understanding. Once arrived at, it cannot be lost. On the other hand, consciousness is changeful, flowing, undergoing transformation from moment to moment. Do not hold on to consciousness and its contents. Consciousness held, ceases. To try to perpetuate a flash of insight, or a burst of happiness is destructive of what it wants to preserve. What comes must go. The permanent is beyond all comings and goings. Go to the root of all experience, to the sense of being. Beyond being and not-being lies the immensity of the real. ~Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj from I Am That